The name is Jaime, though I go by any number of assorted nicknames. J-chan. Yumé. Eris. I have a feline fursona by the name of Paraphinelia, but that can just be Phi for short. I'm twenty-one, attending college for a potential career in education, and unemployed, but searching. I have something of a short complex, and am largely addicted to: anime, manga, video games, paranormal or other wise weird stuff, s e x, and chocolate milk. I'm in a serious relationship and utterly in love, currently going through something of a 'transitional' stage in my life.
Personally I am not a social person. Socially I love being around people. Its a curse. It usually takes a lot of kicking and screaming to get me out of the house, but 9 times out of 10 I end up enjoying myself a whole bunch and kind of just have to punch myself for being such an idiot beforehand. That 1 time out of 10 though, I end up miserable and feeling as if I wasted hours of my life, which usually is the biggest part of what makes me edge away from future social events. I'm still trying to find that delicate balance between too much me-time and not enough social-time, but I'm working on it. I. Am. Not. Patient. Even if I sit around all day and do little more than nothing, I'll still rush, rush, rush when there's something to be done, and get annoyed at having to wait any longer when I finally am ready. Other times though, if I'm nervous about going to do something, or I really don't want to go do something, I have a bad tendency to get distracted by the T.V., or music. Other times still, my entire family barrages me with little menial tasks that waste my time. Either way, as a result, I'm usually always l.a.t.e. in some way, shape or form, to something.
Writing = Life, I don't know what I'd do without some form of writing utensil and something to write on. I'd really like to pursue my ideal career of becoming a writer, but I've recently discovered that more often than not, I use writing as an escape when things get hard. When there's not a lot of stress flying around, I usually chill and lay back, and don't feel so antsy to jump into the writing as an attempt to get away from everything. I hope to try to be able to better discipline myself in this aspect, and will probably keep writing for the rest of my life. One of my greatest dreams is to become published.
Which brings us to DREAMS. I am a major daydreamer, and I love analyzing and picking apart whatever dreams and nightmares I do have, which are usually quite wacky or intriguing, or in some way, bring inspiration to my writing. I'm more often than not spacing out and thinking up some way that a moment could be better, or ways I'd run the world of if I were LORD GOD OF ALL, but thats probably pretty typical of anyone, neh? ^ . ~ I aspire to be a world ruler one day.
I am selfish. I am an opportunist. No, these are not regularly seen to be good qualities in a person. While I'm not the best person in the world though, I hardly think I'm the worst. I'm simply the kind of person who focuses on what they want, and is determined to get it. On top of these though, I'm also SHY. CAUTIOUS. CAREFUL. I hate above anything to hurt other people, especially the ones I love, which I think is one of my most redeeming factors. I know and understand a lot of my faults, but I treasure the people around me, and hate the idea of causing any one of them undue pain. I also love to see these people happy, and as a Cancerian have a streak of motherly protectiveness in me. I like to make the people around me comfortable, and adore cooking, cleaning, and such similar things that lead to home comfort. Realizing this, I've also recently realized a desire to become a housewife or, simply, a mother.
I love to laugh and feel connected to people, rather than just to be around them. I crave understanding. Either from my end, or the other persons. I'm a bit slow, and honestly, don't know a whole lot, but I love to study things that interest me, if it gets boring, I have a bad habit of sounding it out. I wouldn't be surprised if I had some case of depression, but I find myself mentally stable through my own mental instabilities, and try to embrace everything.
As a writer and an RPer, I also have tons of characters. They are my life. Solitary for far too long, I lived out my life through them. All of them are extremely precious to me, and in ways, I have no idea how I would get through some of the tougher times in my life without them. I have very sentimental attachments to all sorts of strange little things.
Some of my favorite anime and video games include: Tales of the Abyss, Shadow Hearts, Persona 3/4, Gundam 00, Reservoir Chronicles Tsubasa, Kuroshitsuji, Code Geass, My-HiME, Witchblade, Dazzle, and Dragon Knights.
Most beloved characters are Sebastian Michaelis (Kuroshitsuji/Black Butler), Fai D. Flourite (Tsubasa), Lockon Stratos (Gundam 00), Ali Al-Sarshes (Gundam 00), Zelgadis (The Slayers), Tasuki (Fushigi Yugi), Diva (Blood+), Lelouch (Code Geass), C.C. (Code Geass), Ryoji (Persona 3), Riku (Kingdom Hearts), Aion (Chrono Crusade), Nicolai (Shadow Hearts II), Luke fon Fabre (Tales of the Abyss), among... countless others. @ _ @
ALI AL-SARSHES = God.
As far as music goes, I've got quite a large list of favorites and preferences. I think one of my top favorite "genres" though will always be BGM and Classical. I do love me some good rock, though, but also some good country songs here and there, and I will always, always loff on foreign music, particularly Japanese.
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